These past 3 weeks have been i guess the most painful and depressing ive had even when my gramps died. I really do want to tell all of you whats going on but... I really cant explain whats been happening...

I still dont understand what really is going on but all i know is something bads going to happen in these next few years and I dont know if well........

I dont want to say it ............

I am going to be on here off and on and i will be on xbox live and maplestory
but i dont think ill be the same after what i saw in my dream a few nights ago.....

I really want to tell you all but i cant jsut yet im sorry....

Hi pplz got my book report done and well I'm off to do some xmas pictures yay :^_^: I'll be making xmas cards for ppl here xD hope you like them if you get one.

Other note i need to make a list of who watches me and who i watch im getting tired of tryign to figure out whos who so ya ill be making that soon. Um yeah Im using punctuation OMG AWWWW!!!

Oh and im still happy so yay idk someone dies that I dont know and im happy. Someones dies I do know I eather am happy or Im like wtf.

If any one wants to request I'll make an effort to finish before the holidays, ok?

Oh and before i forget TY EVERYONE im almost at 7k page views YAY

You know im sorry for kinda spaming the journals but ya so far well Im happy again idk maybe the death of another student maybe im jsut happy when everyone else is miserable but all i know is well IM REALLY FREAKING HAPPY OMG this is such an awsoem day for me i finaly got my adobe to wrok for me and turned out great i jsut feel good

HIIII PPLZ im not depresd any more hehehehehehe o and indi im thinking im going to use my sand dragon tf of my self as the contest entry for a blue and tan coloration :^_^: seeign the green well done drawing disapered ill use that i missed you all :^_^: 's everyone

Ive been thinking if you do TF reg Traditonal Digital and all the other art works here what got you started?

For me, it was i have to say the day I turned 6 I started having this contunous dream about myself landing in a specail acadamey where any thing and every thing was possible but I got stuck with the Gene splicing agency in the left wing. I was 6 and I very little clue what I was doing there. But as every day past till I 6 and a half the dream kept enlarging getting well more intresting it was different everytime and every person i saw live and die seemed to remeber me every time i came back to it the next night and well I was given a watch was charged with particals call o what was it gamotits or somthing like that the were flowign like electorns but in a negative charge and postive allowing the watch to alter its users shape. It seemed to work on a dna core witch for somereason i saw in one of my dreams i cant Even explain how amazint this was. This dream seemed so real I.... only told 3 ppl and 2 belived me.. I reopened my note book about this and well idk how to explain this but It seems like somthing albert instine would have wrote the way i put it in words astonds me and idk its what got me into TF art even before I even knew what TF art was or looked like I WAS 6 when I wrote it I...... I dotn know what to think of this but Ever sence I started doing Tf art the world hates me but I just I WANT MORE i cnat explain it I cant draw any thing i think of it excapes me every time I cant even draw my oc the way i wnat to Every night i think DAM it WHY CANT I DO THIS RIGHT i try and try only thing i can do is write what the world does how it works an dwhy ever sence age 6 i keep dreaming of things to come I even think i saw this god dam war but seeing a raptor come running at you riping your face off while you blow its chest apart in a 3 story building and seeing all yoru freinds dead in the same room at age 6 Isnt a good sight even for a dream though i got enjoy ment out of it it was like i didnt know my self i jsut played the warrior good or bad trying to save what was left of his humanity but the end of my dream was..... i left the department i went into exile and i used the watch to forever seal my self in the mountains ice sheet forever saved form this world and the dream world and then 2 years ago i had the dream again but i woke up from this eternal slumber to find that there was no humans only animals and nature i never forgot that sight never and i never will

Im sorry if this is boring to some of you but thats how i got into TF art and how idk i ...... never knew what it was yet i knew what TF art was when i first saw it... this feeling will never leave me that i need to do somthing to remove my self from the world till humanity is gone forever but thre still is that feeling of self gratitude that haunts me to find out what is coming for me and i resist it because I know whats coming and ...... Ill neve rsay what will happen only what i think never again will i dream to see never...............

scaners dead still working on my life and hound STFU ABOUT YOUR DAM GF god youd think youd get over her GOD ........